Well I am 10 weeks pregnant now. I cannot wait for the second trimester to being. I'm feeling like crap most days of the week now. I'm so tired since I can't sleep well (thanks to a fast filling bladder, nausea and insomnia).
I have been trying to keep up my running as well. So far I"m successful about every-other-day with getting 4 miles down. I would love to do better but running while you feel like you may vomit or with heartburn is no treat.
I have another appointment a week from tomorrow. I think I'm going to end up taking Judah again. I'm not thrilled about it but I think we can make it work. We downloaded an app on the i-pod called "panda." It's simple a panda that changes colors when you hit the screen and says "I'm a red panda." Judah loves it!
I'm still feeling very overwhelmed with the idea of two little people in my life. I saw a mom at the park yesterday with a 3 year old and a maybe 11 month old. She was so stressed out and snappy. I so don't want to be like that :-(
I've been thinking about things that I'm going to have to do with two but I have no idea how. Like grocery shopping, gardening, going to the bathroom, etc. I am in need of some serious mentoring.
Not a whole lot going on otherwise. Just trying to keep swimming while pregnancy takes over my body.
I'm praying for strength and grace for myself. I know that Jesus loves me no matter what and that I can rest in Him. I so need Him everyday.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Friday, March 11, 2011
First ultrasound
Today I had my first ultrasound for this pregnancy. I was surprised that they were able to do it abdominally but also pretty happy about it. Looks like Beanie is measuring right on time (8 weeks, 3 days) and has a strong heartbeat of 176 bpm.
Ovulated with the left ovary which confirms to my that the right is truly shot. Oh well. Good old lefty seems to be working out just fine.
I had to bring Judah with me and he did pretty well overall. The appointment was about an hour and for the most part he played with an i-pod app and ate snacks. About half way through he looked at the screen and said "Kitty" and right before we left he pointed at it and said "dolphin, eee-eee)." This first impression of his new sibling. He did give me a lot of "all done"'s during the exam but he stuck it out like the champ he is.
Strangely this appointment didn't make it all that much more real to me this time. With Judah I remember crying and being overwhelmed that there was a tiny little person growing in me. This time the emotions just were not that strong. It was more of a confirmation that everything is going find and (thank GOD!) it's not twins.
I have a feeling I'm not going to fee bonded to this one as soon as I did with Judah. I'm sure once the kicks start that will help things. I'm just so busy with my baby that's already here that I'd hard to take time to imagine life with the new one. Plus I'm scared as hell about what "life with the new one" is going to be like. . .
So we have little Beanie's picture on the refrigerator just like we did with J. I'm hoping it will remind me of the life inside and help me to make better eating choices. It's so easy to pick crap when your stomach feels like junk. Comfort foods. But comfort foods have little nutrition and usually make you fat.
So far weight gain is going ok. I was hoping to make it through the first trimester without putting any on but alas... 3 lbs to date. I think it's the comfort food and I need to knock it off. Thankfully the second trimester is not that far away and usually morning sickness stops early in the 2nd.
I have kept up with running pretty well so far. this week has been much better. I plan to keep going throughout pregnancy so I need to stay on top of it. I also need to continue with my strength training. I need these muscles ripped to help with birth!
I'm very fortunate to have several "belly buddies" this go around too. A couple moms due a month ahead of me, one within a week of me and a couple about a month after me. Thank God for online mom communities! I have honestly made some wonderful friendships through them. I just wish I could meet these incredible ladies in person; some I have :-)
And now to spend sometime reading about this little Bean and what (s)he is doing this week. I'm one blessed mama.
Ovulated with the left ovary which confirms to my that the right is truly shot. Oh well. Good old lefty seems to be working out just fine.
I had to bring Judah with me and he did pretty well overall. The appointment was about an hour and for the most part he played with an i-pod app and ate snacks. About half way through he looked at the screen and said "Kitty" and right before we left he pointed at it and said "dolphin, eee-eee)." This first impression of his new sibling. He did give me a lot of "all done"'s during the exam but he stuck it out like the champ he is.
Strangely this appointment didn't make it all that much more real to me this time. With Judah I remember crying and being overwhelmed that there was a tiny little person growing in me. This time the emotions just were not that strong. It was more of a confirmation that everything is going find and (thank GOD!) it's not twins.
I have a feeling I'm not going to fee bonded to this one as soon as I did with Judah. I'm sure once the kicks start that will help things. I'm just so busy with my baby that's already here that I'd hard to take time to imagine life with the new one. Plus I'm scared as hell about what "life with the new one" is going to be like. . .
So we have little Beanie's picture on the refrigerator just like we did with J. I'm hoping it will remind me of the life inside and help me to make better eating choices. It's so easy to pick crap when your stomach feels like junk. Comfort foods. But comfort foods have little nutrition and usually make you fat.
So far weight gain is going ok. I was hoping to make it through the first trimester without putting any on but alas... 3 lbs to date. I think it's the comfort food and I need to knock it off. Thankfully the second trimester is not that far away and usually morning sickness stops early in the 2nd.
I have kept up with running pretty well so far. this week has been much better. I plan to keep going throughout pregnancy so I need to stay on top of it. I also need to continue with my strength training. I need these muscles ripped to help with birth!
I'm very fortunate to have several "belly buddies" this go around too. A couple moms due a month ahead of me, one within a week of me and a couple about a month after me. Thank God for online mom communities! I have honestly made some wonderful friendships through them. I just wish I could meet these incredible ladies in person; some I have :-)
And now to spend sometime reading about this little Bean and what (s)he is doing this week. I'm one blessed mama.
Sunday, March 6, 2011
First appointment, pregnancy symptoms and nerves
Well, I had my first appointment on Friday. I met with Amy for about 90 minutes. She asked a million questions about my previous pregnancy and health and had my blood drawn (for which I now have a bruise the size on my palm). I did not get an ultrasound but I can call the ultrasound center to schedule an optional appointment tomorrow.
The frustrating thing this time is that apparently I need to figure out what exactly my insurance covers. For example, would they cover the cost of more than one ultrasound? Screenings for birth defects? What is my co-pay? The last time with the OB they had a billing center that did all that for me. I don't have a clue where to begin and I really don't want to spend an hour on the phone with my insurance company... oh well...
I'm officially due October 19th. But I am not telling most people that. A due date is simply a guess and I do not want the millions of questions should I go "over due' about when the baby is coming. I'd rather be general about it.
I am feeling nauseous off and on most days. I haven't thrown up, but I have come close on several occasions. My food aversions and cravings are much stronger this pregnancy. I want eggs and pizza all the time and just about everything else sounds disgusting to me.
TMI!!!!
I also have the unfortunate side effect of constipation on top of bloating. It SUCKS! I NEVER have this issue normally and my body is not reacting well to it. I swear I look about 5 months pregnant instead of almost 8 weeks. None of my clothes fit and I feel gross :-(
I am having difficulty getting excited about this pregnancy. I think I am supremely overwhelmed by the pending changes. I KNOW what is coming this time and with eyes wide open I am very nervous. It seems we just got things going really well with Judah and now we are going to throw a screwdriver into our well oiled machine. I'm scared for how we will all adjust as a family.
However, this baby was intentional and wanted. I'm just nervous about it all. I'm sure once I see the little heartbeat, feel a kick or two and stop feeling like death, my enthusiasm will return.
I'm also quite certain that this will be my last pregnancy. Unless it is a boy, in which case I may consider trying once more for a girl. I always thought I would have a large family but at this point in my life I don't have that desire. I want to be able to take my kids to Europe, get them the best education possible, spend quality time with each of them individually. These things would most likely not be possible with more than 2-3 kids. I also know my limits and I'm not sure I could mentally handle more than that as well.
Of course that could just be the pregnancy misery talking. I'm a role model for why women don't want to get pregnant ;-)
The frustrating thing this time is that apparently I need to figure out what exactly my insurance covers. For example, would they cover the cost of more than one ultrasound? Screenings for birth defects? What is my co-pay? The last time with the OB they had a billing center that did all that for me. I don't have a clue where to begin and I really don't want to spend an hour on the phone with my insurance company... oh well...
I'm officially due October 19th. But I am not telling most people that. A due date is simply a guess and I do not want the millions of questions should I go "over due' about when the baby is coming. I'd rather be general about it.
I am feeling nauseous off and on most days. I haven't thrown up, but I have come close on several occasions. My food aversions and cravings are much stronger this pregnancy. I want eggs and pizza all the time and just about everything else sounds disgusting to me.
TMI!!!!
I also have the unfortunate side effect of constipation on top of bloating. It SUCKS! I NEVER have this issue normally and my body is not reacting well to it. I swear I look about 5 months pregnant instead of almost 8 weeks. None of my clothes fit and I feel gross :-(
I am having difficulty getting excited about this pregnancy. I think I am supremely overwhelmed by the pending changes. I KNOW what is coming this time and with eyes wide open I am very nervous. It seems we just got things going really well with Judah and now we are going to throw a screwdriver into our well oiled machine. I'm scared for how we will all adjust as a family.
However, this baby was intentional and wanted. I'm just nervous about it all. I'm sure once I see the little heartbeat, feel a kick or two and stop feeling like death, my enthusiasm will return.
I'm also quite certain that this will be my last pregnancy. Unless it is a boy, in which case I may consider trying once more for a girl. I always thought I would have a large family but at this point in my life I don't have that desire. I want to be able to take my kids to Europe, get them the best education possible, spend quality time with each of them individually. These things would most likely not be possible with more than 2-3 kids. I also know my limits and I'm not sure I could mentally handle more than that as well.
Of course that could just be the pregnancy misery talking. I'm a role model for why women don't want to get pregnant ;-)
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